I speaketh

There is some important review happening on Friday..so i have to be here...feeling a little low.... Been planning this trip to Chennai to see Zee now for ages and every time something happens to wreck my plans.. This time it hurts all the more coz i so desperately wanted to be there to see Zee.. He seems to be in bad shape and needs my help..Ever wondered how it would feel to know more about people born on the same day? Then ask me..

Zee and i share the same Birthday and year and if people who've known us for long are to be believed then we are so goddamn alike.. Now that does not sound like too much like a compliment considering he is such a womaniser.. Ok ok.. he claims i am J coz women swoon over him but bhai, i know we are both "good boys"...neway i digress..I've known Zee since when.. std 4... he's been follwoing me through school and then RECT.. I was even scared he would join me at MBT but thankfully HCL picked him up..But twas around the same time when i moved into Infy and we were there together again at Chennai..Twas no surprise when he followed me to SP too.. Feb 5th might have been my last evening out with Taru at SP but i have horrid memories of that day more coz that was when Zee's father passed away..Over all these years we have become really really close..Though I haven't said so in words, i am sure there is nothing i would not do for him..

And surprise of all suprises was when Zee told me last month that he had also fallen in you-know-wot..When i first heard of it, i could not believe it and thought he was kidding as usual.. After all, his reaction had been precisely the same when i told him about Twinkle...But over time, i realised he was actually serious..N i was even more surprised when i found it was Suman..Was happy for him.. But off late he's become a wreck..On one hand, he realises he has a mountian to climb since there is bound to be opposition from all quarters, he's himself not sure about his feelings for her and most importantly she doesn't know.. And to make matters worse there's that jerk Punit lurking in the shadows.. What a horrible roommate to have.

What pains me most is that i feel totally helpless and beleive me there is nothing worse than this feeling.. I know he is suffering but i have no credibility to give him advice when i am going through almost all of it myself and not doing anything about it. Of course, i am a very strong person and can tide over this.. But am not so sure about him.. I know i can make a difference by talking loong and hard with him but i dunno wot i should tok..Never felt so empty before...God, show me a way...